That something missing...

I dont know what it is but hopefuly i can fill the void soon enough...
Something out there... or Someone out there...
The thing that i need in my life to end my depression...
Or at least permanantly sate it...

Its a long slow ride to insanity... I should be there by now but my life is to tied up with things for me to slip that far...

All the stuff i do keeps me from sliping all the way... Each class, assignemnt, errand...etc drags me back from my own mind to the collective "reality" where I'm perfectly normal and stable... And every time i slip back as soon as its gone... Feeling more disgusted with myself for it each time...
Each time it happens i just deny myself for everyone else...
And its sickening to repeat it over and over...

I still cant bring myself to the resolution...